Mac takes the big step. The forbidden one, never done before. He goes to the other Coney Island.
It looks the same, very similar, only inverted. When he pauses in the door to this Coney Island, one block toward the river from his Coney Island, the bar stands to the left, not right. Here the patrons sit and face west. Their left arms are nearest the door. It is their left shoulders they look over to espy Mac. The faces are familiar, yet not. He's unable to speak the name of any man here, and how can that be?
The decor is identical, even the waterstains in the ceiling, almost. It seems obvious the same contractor built this establishment, in the same era, with the same stock of materials. A man with dark thinning swept-back hair who could be Paletello's first cousin stands the register, a dull, mildly skeptical gaze upon Mac.
When he sits down there is an immediate uneasiness, as though some sign stuck on his back indicates he belongs in the other place.
"Hey. How y'all."
"Can we help you?"
"I, uh . . . just, I'll get a burger. Just stopping in for a bite."
"We're out of buns. Have you ever been in here before?"
"Naw, sure haven't. Know it's kind of funny, drive down this street a hundred times a day, but I've never been inside here."
"I didn't think so."
"How about a dog? Hot dog. Fixed up any old way would be fine with me. Kind of hungry here." Mac points to a guy's plate a few seats down. They have hot dog buns for sure.
"Well, I'll tell you what," Paletello's double says. "I've had my eye out for the sanitation inspector. We're not supposed to be selling food on account of a little kitchen situation back here."
"He's got a hot dog."
"I never sold him a hot dog. I gave him something to eat because he's a friend of mine."
"Can't you give me one?"
"How could I? I don't know you."
Mac quickly remedies the situation, announcing his name to all present. "If you're wondering where you've seen me before, it was on the news, Tuesday before last." Blank stares all around. "The Reverend Sarah. You know, when everyone was trying to find her body? I was the one who did. They interviewed me on television."
"Who?"
"Doctor Sarah. The minister on the southside . . . ?"
"Oh. That whitehaired lady? I think I heard about something along those lines. You found her?"
"Yep. On my way fishing."
"Was they looking for her or her body? At first? I was under the impression she was thought missing to begin with."
"Yeah. Me too. It was really an accident. Finding her, I mean."
"But you just said you were hunting her like everybody else?"
"Well, yeah, I uh . . ." The eyes. Every set of eyes in the place is upon him. "You got coffee?"
A long sigh from the proprietor. "Cawf-fee. Hmm. Naw. Aint got none." And right there, in front of Mac and all the eyes, the guy with the unfinished hot dog raises a stained coffee cup. Mac watches. The proprietor slowly turns behind the counter and lifts a glass pot from a burner. Very deliberately he walks to the same emptied cup and pours.
"Joe," the proprietor says. Mac is puzzled. "What this is, is Joe. That's what we call it."
"Well, okay. I'll have some, um . . . Joe."
What follows is not laughter, but raucous sound with elements of distant hilarity. "Joe! Joe!" Repeated up and down the counter, echoes bouncing off the tile. Contorted faces, laden with moisture and redness and dry tears. "He called it Joe!"
Before long Mac is scrambling over himself to get out of that alternate universe. It is as if he has just escaped some uncomfortable dream, or finished talking to a disturbing machine. But, outside in the air, on the same sidewalk he's always walked on, shame lingers. He can't go back to the original Coney Island right now, not after betraying them.
His knee, with a sharp twinge now after the bike guys, reminds him to take it slow.
He decides to check into a new corner bar down DeSiard where he'd made a delivery. But on the way he has to pass the old Coney Island, so he shuffles to the opposite sidewalk. From a safe distance, there's Paletello and Martin and some of the regulars. No Ret, no Kelly. That may be Gayle beside Martin, and Mac feels the urge to cross back over, but fights it. No one notices him passing by.
He brushes into someone, startling himself. Smells of beer and urine. Mac pauses, hands in pocket. "Hey Jimmy Lee." There is no return greeting, just one eye steady upon Mac and the other eye slightly askew. And the gaping nostril.
Jimmy Lee has a toothpick in his mouth, unhinged by anything save the natural adhesive of dry lips. He stares at Mac, an almost smirking look, as if he knows exactly what Mac is up to. Of which Mac himself is clueless. Mac decides to move on, heels tapping on the concrete in eerie isolation along the untrafficked street.
He passes a bar recently renovated with antique furnishings. A player piano backs against the far wall, ghostly fingers hammering out "Great Balls of Fire." Loud college-aged boys sit inside, eating a delivery pizza that Mac can smell through the open doors.The night is cooler than nights past and lightly trafficked. He wanders a few alleyways, keeping to the center. Down the unlit passages he finds nothing remarkable, opting for a moment to watch the half-dark moon looming over the highest floor of the hospital. The windows there remind him of a dispatch switchboard, different lights on and off.
In the block of Grammont near St John an unsuspected voice at his feet rattles him, knocking him off-balance, as if his muscles had leaped ahead of him. Scary moments pass before he recovers, making out an old black man on knees at the base of a wall, surrounded by a small fortress of garbage cans. In the dim alley-light Mac sees that the trunk of the man's body rests upon a dolly, the wooden kind used in older service garages.
The man owns no legs.
He will not look precisely at Mac's face, and Mac begins to wonder if he is blind. He is asking for money.
Mac, unlike himself, even to himself, asks "Why should I give you money?" There comes no story, no excuse. "Cause I need. You got it, whitefolks." Mac observes a tattered brown suit, dangling pants legs baggy and soiled from being caught by dolly wheels.
Mac looks around. No one in sight. "The Reverend Sarah ever help you out?"
"Ain't no woman, preacher or not, ever hep me, not even a handjob. Got any spare coins?" Mac considers, then takes the meager change from the draft and drops it in the alley. The old man is forced to wheel several feet to retrieve it. He propels himself by wooden blocks strapped to his hands with loose leather straps.
"Thanks, mother—." The man counts the change, slides it into his coat pocket. "What you waiting for, whitefolks?" Mac is looking around the alley. He sees the brief flash of a taxi cab crossing the alley mouth down St John, nobody else anywhere.
He begins to kick the man. At first there came nothing, just the dull impact of his shoes, then rose a piteous howling. Mac kicks a few times more. The old man falls off the dolly and is unable to move on the concrete. Mac stands, watching, incredulous, as if the two of them were in another world altogether from the one he has known. Among howls the old man is pleading for Mac to kick him some more. "Come on, whitefolks—Ahhh—kick it out of me. Ain't have far to go."
Mac looks both ways down the alley, runs the shorter distance toward light as screams echo off the brick walls, running, and at the open street he doubles over, breathing, the overwhelming insistent drum of his heart against ribs.
